@Death The problem that i have is that in one case racism is not tolerated and in 2nd case racism isnt taken slightly.
In my case and context and intent, i did not direct the n word to anyone, and in my point of view it wasnt derogatory or anything except it just being the n word.
It mightve been a stupid edgy joke only to me but it is obviously not for me to decide what is just a joke and what is racist thing to write on a note in the server.
Im gonna be 100% honest, that being a little edge lord that i am, i wouldve typed the n word, and gotten banned, sooner or later but i would argue the point of getting the perma ban or temp ban for what i did. If i had typed "the key of "nigga's" dream" on a note instead of nword's dream i wouldve gotten a temp suspension instead of a perma and i wouldve learned the same lesson with less consequences. Therefore context in my case doesnt matter, since it was only the word i used that defined the lenght of my suspension.
I want to be clear that i never intended to be racist but im not gonna argue the rules of the server since im not in the positsion to do so.